So will things ever be the same again?

Another week has ended.

2012-01-27T05:28:00.000-08:00

Hello ! :)

So another week has ended. Tiring, hectic yet durable( i guess?). Everything's alright I guess, love everything the way it is now. Haha, anyway, for the previous post, in the picture, my best friend said that I looked fat! LIKE FINALLY. Do I really? Do I ? hehehehee so exciting! I miss blogging, so here I am , trying to blog as often as possible and usually during the weekends or on Friday?

Sigh, gotta buck myself up and start thinking which course I wanna go to because then, I'll have an aim in life. Oh wells, it can never be too early? Haha, can't wait for March Holidays.

Guess all of you heard about what happened to Harry Styles huh? Its really sad though. I found out during my recess.

He is one hell of a sexy beast and I don't understand why would anyone hate on him. He really is adorable even though he is the youngest in the group. His curls, his dimples, his fashion style. He's just too gorgeous for one to hate on him. He really deserves to be happy and if what we fans are doing, is ruining his happiness, I really think, we all don't deserve to be called fans. Harry needs his happiness and if Caroline is what makes him happy, he should be with her. But if really the break is what makes him happy, then I'm glad that he's happy. But I really want him to know that he should always be happy because that's what we fans want him to be.

I love you Harry Styles. Be happy. x

xo, HaziqahSidek.

quick update!

2012-01-24T04:05:00.000-08:00

Look at my sexy boys *-*

Hello!

Sorry for not blogging. School started 'bout 3 weeks ago and it has been hectic and super tiring. Supplementary classes till 1530 everyday from Monday to Thursday. Friday might be the only day where I am able to relax but I still think my Friday is taken up by MP or something. Heck . The past week had been super tiring and busy as hell. Not a great start huh?

Also, I'm in a mission to save my money to see my sexy 5 lads. Gosh, they're just so sexy, I wanna hug and kiss them. Their voices are amazayn . Haha. I really miss blogging, I really do! Sigh. Really can't wait till the next long holidays which will be the March Holidays. Praying hard, I have no classes 'cos if I do, I'll be depressed.

Alright, just taking a lil break. A lot of tests are coming up. Maths, Hist , SS , POA, EL , Chem . le sigh.

That's all I guess, till next time loves . :)

HaziqahSidek :*

Loss.

2012-01-06T06:51:00.000-08:00

I always thought losing someone is the worse thing that can ever happen. As much as I would like to continue believing in that, sometimes, when we lose someone, it can be a good thing too. We let people into our life, allow them to enter our hearts, making a little space for them. But things change. So do people and so do feelings. Then they act like as if nothing happened and they leave. Leaving that little empty space in your heart. No apologies, no nothing. No smiles, no frowns. Only tears.

It hurts. It definitely does. But what's worse, is to even be there for someone who is dying. Sure, you can be there throughout their tough times, hold their hands when they are in pain, kiss them on the cheeks and hugging them saying everything will be okay. But will things really be okay?

I can never put myself through that situation. It kills me. It kills me to even be there for someone who is suffering. As much as I want to stay strong for them, I can never do so. I hate feeling like this.

I'm not gonna risk the chance of losing people in my life anymore..

Fan Fiction?

2011-12-31T08:28:00.000-08:00

Hello! Its new year in roughly less than 2 hours. Don't really care so meaning no resolutions no wishes no nothing. Just plain me. ;) Hoping 2012 will go easy on me.

Anyway, I've been reading a lot and I mean A LOT of Fan Fiction online. Which is why I stop tweeting a lot just a little bit of tweets here and there. It also made me cooped up in my room, lying down in my bed for hours throughout the day. Hehe, so here it goes. & this Fan Fiction is a 1D Fan Fiction. ;)

Introduction :

Hi! My name is Amelia Miller. I'm 18 years old, & I grew up in London. I live together with my parents, who are often out of town for business trip. My Dad is a CEO of some Media Industry company . My Mum is a fashion designer, so I get a whole lot of clothes from her which is pretty normal. I also have a little sister, Sophia Miller. She's just 7 years old. We're very close, closer than we are with our parents.

I enjoy Photography so much that I have my very own photo studio in the house and I would never ever leave the house without a DSLR in my bag. I also love singing, playing the guitar and dancing. I started uploading videos of me singing songs on Youtube and I've got overwhelming response. So, you can say that I'm kind of a Youtube hit?

Chapter 1 :

* Amelia's POV *

During the summer break, Sophia and I would head over to our vacation house which was at Holmes Chapel in Chesire. Yeap, I know. Same hometown as Harry Styles, 1/5 of One Direction. But I had never seen him around the area, so I guess he was never around when me and Sophia was. So, Sophia and I decided to stay there for the whole summer to get away from the busy city of London. Our parents couldn't make it to this trip. As usual, they were too busy with work .

" Isn't this nice? I'm so glad we're here, " Sophia said, smiling.

" Me too sweetie. Now come on, let's change. We'll swim in the pool later on, " I replied.

Our housekeepers, Sammy and Dave was there with us as well. They went to the swimming pool, to clear and prepare things for us. I got to the room I was sharing with Sophia. Our bags were already there and we changed to simple clothing and decided to unpack . Sophia was all enthusiastic that she mumbled about all the things we could do together. I couldn't help but just laugh at her enthusiasm. As soon as we were done,

Sophia changed to her swimming costume as fast as she could and pulled my hand, leading us to the swimming pool. I didn't feel like swimming thus I grabbed my guitar which was by the door.

I thanked Sammy and Dave and they nodded their head before going in the house.

Sophia jumped into the pool, splashing the water towards me. I glared at her and she smile apologetically . I chuckled. I sat on the bench, crossing my legs, playing the guitar to the song " What makes you beautiful " by One Direction. I could see Sophia swimming towards me listening to me. She loved it when I sing . When I finished, I heard people clapping at the side gate. I turned towards the direction in surprise.

To my surprise, standing right outside the backyard was One Direction. Some of them were chuckling while some smiled. Sophia got out of the swimming and ran towards them. I was still in shocked, thus sitting there like an idiot .

" Hi! A..Are you One Direction? " Sophia asked in surprise looking at them.

" Yes, indeed we are. Are you a fan of us? " Louis asked, bending down so that she could look straight in the eye instead of looking up. The rest did the same too.

I slowly walked towards them, blushing when Sophia asked,

" Yes !! I love all of you!! Did you hear my sister, Amelia sing?! She was amazing wasn't she? I kept telling her that all the time but she denies it all the time , I don't know why. " replied excitedly.

" She was amazing, beyond amazing," Harry replied, winking at her and me.

" Come on now Sophia, don't question them anymore. " I gave her a look.

" But.. But. Can we invite them over tonight? Pretty pretty please? " Sophia looked at me, giving me her puppy eyes.

" Aww , come on Sophia... " I tried to look away from her but her eyes was just too cute to ignore. " Alright, fine, they can come over, that is provided they are willing to come, " I reluctantly agreed.

She then turn to them, giving them her puppy eyes.

" Are you willing to come? " She asked, emphasizing on the word, willing.

" We would love to. We'll come over around 7, " Liam replied, smiling.

I gave them an apologetic look and mouthed " Sorry ". They saw it but all of them shook their heads, smiling.

" We'll see you later then, " Sophia replied enthusiastically.

" Come on Amelia, stop staring at them, we got a lot of things to do before they come over, " she yelled, pulling my hands.

I blushed. She's only 7 years old and she's making me embarrassed and ordering me around. This little brat.

Chapter 2 :

* Liam's POV *

As soon as Sophia pulled Amelia back into the house, the five of burst out laughing. Sophia was just too adorable and Amelia was shy yet gorgeous. Her long curled,brown hair, her light brown eyes, everything about her was beautiful .

" Damn she's fit," I heard Harry .

" Now Harry, don't you dare try to get with her. " Louis said.

Louis, Harry and Niall had their very own, well, girlfriends .

" Yeah dude. Think about Jackie bro. " Zayn added on.

" Come on, let's get going . " I said.

We headed back to Harry's bungalow which was just right next to the girl's house. Niall headed to the kitchen, probably to get some food. The rest of us just slacked in the living room, watching How I Met Your Mother. When the show finished, we all got ready and decided to head to the girls house.

" Hey man, you alright? " Louis asked me .

" Yeah . Why shouldn't I be? " I replied, raising an eyebrow.

" Well, you've been rather quiet. Since you're alright, ready to go? " He waited outside my room.

I nodded. The rest was already at the front door, waiting for us.

* Amelia's POV*

For the past hour, Sophia had asked Sammy to prepare some snacks for the boys and us. She made me prepare some movies that we could watch later on. She was so excited, she couldn't sit still. Boy boy, what has got into this girl.

" Sophia, if you don't sit down right now and stop fidgeting, I'll make sure you go to bed at 8. Which means, you'll only have an hour to spend with the boys, provided they come on time, " I said, annoyed with her actions.

" I'm sorry Lia.. I'll go to my room and read my books. " She replied in a sad voice.

I couldn't help but to give her the sympathy look. She was just too excited. But she was getting a little bit annoying.

" Come on, get your books and I'll read them to you. " I gave her a smile.

Just as she was going up, the doorbell rang. I could see her eyes lit up, her face glowing. She grabbed my hand, running to the door. I turn the door knob, and there was 5 guys smiling, standing outside.

" Come on in now! " She grabbed Harry and Niall's hands bringing them to the living room.

" Sorry, " I muttered looking at Louis, Liam and Zayn.

" Its okay. How old is she? " Liam asked.

I shut the door after they got in.

" 7 . But she's matured for her age, so yeah. " I shrugged.

We walked towards to the living room, only to see Sophia sitting on Harry's lap, talking to him and Niall about herself. Zayn and Louis took the seat next to them and I sat on the two-seat couch with Liam.

" So tell us about yourself Amelia " Zayn asked.

Sophia gave the please-be-nice-look.

" Alright. Um, I'm 18. I love photography and singing? " I shrugged. I always didn't know what to say when I introduce myself in summarized words.

" Are you signed or anything? " Harry asked.

" Er.. Well.. Not really. My dad is in the media industry so he can signed me but he doesn't really wanna do that for me now, not when I'm 18. At least when I'm 19. I have no idea why. " I mumbled.

The reason why was because he didn't really want me to leave Sophia all alone when I was out for fame. I sighed.

" Do you guys want to watch some movies? " Sophia said, breaking the tension.

" Sure young one, what have you got? " Niall smirked.

" Well, since I'm only 10.. We've got The Sister's Keeper, Harry Potter and erm, well.. Hannah Montana. " Sophia mumbled while carrying the box of DVD's .

" Hannah Montana, it will be ! " Zayn shouted.

The rest groaned. I chuckled.

" Oh well oh well, right after this movie, you'll head to bed alright sweetie? " I told Sophia.

10 minutes after the movie was on, I got a phone call from an unknown number. I excused myself while I picked up the call.

SORRY IF ITS DRAGGY DAMN. HAHAHAHAAHA. FIRST TRY SORRYSORRY .

HAPPY NEW YEAR ALL BTW ;)

2011-12-26T05:32:00.000-08:00

Have no idea what I should do with my life now. I just wanna head out, be free, cry my hearts out and laugh at how stupid I am. Why me? Why do I have to go through this? Why am I crying? Why am I crying at how stupid I am by doing this?

Just wanna head out with someone or alone, cry my hearts out .

hs xo.

2011-12-22T07:36:00.001-08:00

I'm so good in pretending hahahahahais 😔

2011-12-21T07:52:00.001-08:00

So hey. Really feel like ranting. Sigh. Am I always the one at fault? Am I always the one that when people hear or see my name then say " Oh that bitch? " Am I the one that people always think that I know everything & I'm a fucking egoistic bitch.
Tell you what. Maybe I am ok. Maybe. Just don't understand why each time this " thing " happens, the tables turn around. I thought all of you are going to be on my side. Well, now it looks like everyone is on X sides. I'm not mad. I'm upset. Why does the tables always turn. Just sucks. Sucks.
Sigh.

Bye.

xo, HaziqahSidek.

Depressed.

2011-12-18T07:11:00.001-08:00

The title says it all. Thats what I am.

xx

Choir Concert.

2011-12-17T05:54:00.000-08:00

So this was the choir concert and at that point of time, it was also the last day of bridging . You couldn't guess how happy all bedoknorthians were at that point of time. Hahaha. It was a good day, just that we got lost right a few mins before the concert . Heh. Anyway, i resized the photos. ( tn taught me ) so yeah! enjoy. more coming up, i guess? :O

HaziqahSidek. xo

2011-12-17T05:10:00.000-08:00

Hola. So yeah, during this outing, I went out with my two dearest, lovely, beautiful & drop dead gorgeous girlfriends!! Hehehe, & they are.......... Tian Ning & Farah Salleh. Omg, i love them both. Hurt them and I'll........... kick your below and you'll get a tight slap. Heh. Alright, thats all. We went shopping during this outing and I swear, I had fun. Love them both <3. :B

HaziqahSidek. xo

Class BBQ.

2011-12-17T04:54:00.000-08:00

Awesome Night. Awesome Class. I love all of it. Here's a little note to 2E2, though I'm not sure if any of them will read it , but oh wells. Here it goes.

Hey 2E2. Its been 2 long, wonderful, legend.. wait for it .. dary years. Haha, I know all of us have been through a whole lot. From noisy classmates to fighting to changing of teachers for tons of times and many more. We also experienced how a few of our classmates left us, and we also gained a few more classmates, more than what we have lost. This year, is a very very saddening year for all of us., Its the year where (god knows) we get separated from our best friends or even close friends. Its the year where we will not be able to get together as one, again. Sure, we hated the same teachers, love the same teachers and even share the same opinion together. We corrected each others mistakes, continued sabotaging( norm in teenagers ), love our dearest friends even more. Honestly, I've got to say, you guys are the best and I'm gonna miss ALL of you, whether any of you are in the same class with me or as others. I will still miss you guys. I hope we can all have future outings together . I love you, 2E2. :3

Okay that's all. I love 2E2!!! :B

Yes, there's still more coming up. hehehhehee.

HaziqahSidek. xo

Sweet Surprise 14th. ( 29 Oct )

2011-12-17T04:32:00.000-08:00

So, yeap! Pictures on my birthday!! & they surprised me.

What they did was actually, Haikal, Pierre, Yusuf , Asri & Mardiah met up earlier and went to MB to get ready and all, meanwhile, Tian Ning & I went to do my hair, buy so stuffs and then head to MB where the rest surprised me !! Super shocked. Thank you guys, especially Haikal, Yusuf, Pierre & Asri as they actually sacrificed their time to come for my birthday surprise even though it was during their O' level period. Hehe, enjoy! :B

P/S : Much more post with more pictures coming up, hehe. Bear with me :B

HaziqahSidek.

been so long.

2011-11-12T03:22:00.000-08:00

hello! oh wells, been so long since i last blogged haha. A lot of things had happened. So, firstly, my parents are out of town as they went for haj. Bridging has ended. I'm officially 14. Had an awesome blast ( thanks to my dear friends ) . Went out. Choir concert. 1 year anni .

Whoa, what a blast. Haha, awesome year. But I kinda miss 2010. It is the year where everything went on perfectly and smoothly. le sigh.

missing my parents. :|

ciao.

hs.

Bridging.

2011-10-25T06:25:00.000-07:00

Hello!

Everything seems pretty fine right now. Exams has ended. I sort of know my results already. What's even better is that I'm already in my Sec 3 Class. Sadly.. I'm not in the same class with Tian Ning. Did you know I cried?! Okay, I cried when I found out. I immediately wanted to appeal, but changed my mind after I knew that it was impossible. Tian Ning cried too. I'm pretty sure it was more than one time. Poor girl ): I hope she'll be fine in her new class ! :)

Bridging started on Monday. Had camp the week before from wednesday till friday . AWESOME CAMP! I won Best Girl Camper. Hehe. :B . Anyway, bridging will end on the 10th of November . :)

Sigh, will update soon! My birthday is this saturday. 4 more days. leggo!

eleven monthsary.

2011-10-10T06:49:00.000-07:00

Eleven.

Hi everyone! Tomorrow is the eleventh. And guess what? Its Haikal's and Mine eleventh monthsary. Hehe, so happy that we made it through so far despite the fights in between and also the break-up's that either one of us had always wanted, but we always failed to do it. We always end up contacting each other and neither one of us, ever want the break again. Sure, we resort back to that, but we both know it won't bring any good and we'll just end up regretting.

Haikal, if you're reading this, which I'm sure you will.. I'm so happy that we made it through. I know recently I had been very stressed and giving you attitude, but you held on and tried your best to find out the reason why. Your O's are in 14 days time, & i'm really gonna give you my support and make sure you do your very best. I really hope that you'll do very well and make your parents and me proud okay!! I know that you're very smart and you can do it. Remember the promise you made to me? You said you'll try your best to be the top in your class or maybe school. I'm sure you're able to do that. :)

Haikal. Thank you for being so strong. Thank you for holding on to me knowing that everything will work out despite my pester that it won't . Thank you for always giving in to me when I gave you attitude. Thank you for being so patient to me. You're always so patient, & you hardly get angry at me. Okay, its quite rare to see you getting angry at me. You had never called me names. You remain calm in all situations. Also, thank you for making sure that I was safe and alright all the time. Despite you having remedials till late noon, you made sure that I texted you so that you would know what I was doing. And when I didn't text you, you would get so worried and I find that funny yet cute. Haha, funny la you. Anyway, thank you for pampering me with your love. Despite your national exams, you still made time for me and made sure that you gave me your love sufficiently. ( ok i dont know how to say this ). Just, thank you for everything Haikal. I love you very much and I love you the mostest too okay :B

I really hope and want to spend 11.11.11 with you. Its our first anniversary too. I look forward to that love. 1 more month to go. I'm sure we can go through it . Hehe, i love you.

xoxo, hs.

luv u akel :B

Dark nights.

2011-10-09T08:13:00.000-07:00

Here I am. As I lay down on my bed. A million thoughts run through my mind. I don't know what to do. & all I could do was to break down. Here I lie, on my bed, with tears rolling down on my cheeks. I'm in a tight position. I don't know what to do. I did nothing but kept it within me. Now, I wonder what are they doing.. I feel the feeling of guilt creeping on me. What should I do.. What? I can't help but to just lie down right here & do nothing about them. I wish I could clean them so that they'll feel clean and they're able to sleep better. I wish I could give them food so that they'll not be hungry. But I can't do any of this. Truly disappointed with myself . disappointed with the fact that I an't be the daughter my parents want me to be. Be the good friend one could have. Be a responsible, caring & loving pet owner.. So upset with myself. Maybe... Thats what I'm meant to be.. A disappointment. A failure.
I'm sorry.. Maybe at times I shouldn't be here.. Not at all..

Party.

2011-10-06T21:49:00.001-07:00

HI !

eoy has ended weeeeeee.

Had EL oral on wed. got mr elson low. he was awesomeeeeee ~

& then went out to town with tianning.

Yesterday(thursday), had futsal! super awesome i tell u. Josh , Zuhairi & Irwan taught me abit of skills. kekeke . After that we went to Leisure Park to eat at Burger King. After that I met love at Eunos and then we went home weeeeeee~

Today is stay at home day. HAHHAHAA. Going pasar malam later with tn!! i want to buy burger ramly! kacang putih! keropok lekor! vadeh! YAY HEHEHEHEHEE OMG SO HUNGRY OK BYE HEHEHEHEHEEE.

2011-09-29T02:57:00.000-07:00

Hey!

EOY is going on right now. Haha. I've completed :

English Paper I & II.

History .

Literature.

Mother Tongue Paper I & II.

& Maths Paper I.

Maths Paper II would be tomorrow. So I'll end around 9:30? :) Yay. Then I'm able to go to McDonald's and have my mac breakfast, after so long. Hehe. Anyway, I'll have the weekends to study for my science. Tuesday there won't be any school for me but I'll have oral on wednesday. And then thursday and friday would be marking days. YAY :D

Hopefully I'm able to pass! Will promise to blog more oftenly to gain back readers after EOY!

luv u readers <3.

hs.

2011-08-28T09:07:00.000-07:00

hey.

went out w tn to do hmwk. window shopped too. haha , really had a good time w her. cant wait for fasting to end, so that both of us can go out and eat and all! hehehee. & i cannot wait for choir concert :b

anyway. speaking about fasting, although i want it to end, i also dont want it to end. get me? no? nevermind. sigh. Ramadhan is a month where im able to be at peace, able to think clearly, no fear and all. I really love ramadhan . )': this year ramadhan passed by wayyy too fast. sigh :\

im really not in a good mood. broke down for more than 3 times ald and it sucks... sigh. i shd sleep. but everytime i close my eyes, every single memories of you come back rushing to me and i cant help but to cry. sigh . sorry ..

hs.

2011-08-14T06:37:00.000-07:00

OKAY LETS DO THIS . - GRABBED IT FROM TIANNING :D.

10 Facts About My Room :

1) I share my room w my 2 sisters !

2) I sleep on the mattress on the floor T^T

3) My sister chose the colour for my room , which is cream colour.

4) most of the times, when people come over to our house, my sisters and i coop ourselves in the room.

5) We have this pink wardrobe that my sisters and I painted. ( not in pic)

6) My sister is the one that is always cleaning the room. HAHAH.

7) This is the room where my sisters and I always bond together.

8) My first sister intended to do stripes on the wall.

9) I intend to take pics of my sisters and then put them in frames and hang it on the wall.

10) the room is a lil bit squeezy.

9 Facts About My Family :

1) My family gets together only on special occasions which is pretty sad.

2) We're a family of six.

3) We tend to get into fights w each other.

4) We love each other very much. LOLOLOL.

5) My dad is 56, my mum is 50 or 49 i think, my 1st sis is 24. bro is 22. second sis is 18 & im 14 !

6) My bro loves to bully me & he loves to borrow my wide angle lens :(

7) My sisters love to go out w each other w/o me :(

8) i'm close w my mama.

9) My papa is very kinddddd.

10) I love them veryveryvery much !

8 Facts About My Body :

1) I am only 148cm . :(

2) I am veryveryvery skinny ( sux alot ) .

3) I am 35.2 kg. shhhhhh . :(

4) I'm size 6 ( for shoe.)

5) I have oval-shaped face.

6) I dislike my ugly legs cos of the scars . T^T

7) I'm so small almost all my clothes are size S or XS.

8) I pretty much love my body.

7 Facts About My Childhood :

1) I went to PAP w my friends Farah & Araafah.

2) I love going to the playground everytime school finished.

3) I fell down once real bad when i was running to the playground. I didnt cry!!

4) I cried in class because i got scolded .

5) I love my kindergarten teachers and friends.

6) A girl slapped me in kindergarten .

7) I miss my kindergarten times . :(

6 Facts About My Hometown :

1) My hometown is SINGAPORE.

2) SINGAPORE is multi-racial & i loveeeee that .

3) SINGAPORE has awesome places that teens can go too.

4) SINGAPORE sells expensive things tht i cnnt afford.

5) SINGAPORE is one place that I'm glad I'm born in.

6) I LOVE SINGAPORE YAY .

5 Facts About My Bestfriend(s) :

1) I've known her for 11 years since nursery.

2) She's always there for me whenever I need her.

3) She's awesome( But i more awesome heh . )

4) She's smexy (but i more smexy kkk )

5) SHE'S THE BEST & I LOVE HER VERY MUCH . <3<3<3

4 Facts About My Parents :

1) My parents always pamper me.

2) My parents are the best ( but sometimes i wish they understand me ) but im happy w the way it is now.

3) It aches my heart to see them cry & I'm always proud of them .

4) I love them veryveryveryveryvery much & one day I'll make them proud. :D

2 Facts About My Favourite Things :

1) I love photography very much thus I have a CANON 500D !!

2) ITS SO AWESOME I LOVE IT SO MUCH ITS MY BABY . <3<3<3

1 Fact About The Person I Like :

1) I dont like this person but i love this person. He's so cute.He's so adorable. He makes me laugh he makes me angry he makes me smile he makes me cry . he hugs me to make sure i'm warm . he makes sure i'm always love by him he ensures that i sleep before him he makes sure that i'm always happy and well . omg this is more than one fact okay i love this person k ! ok bye !

xoxo, haziqahsidek. <3.

( ps: 455 post ! )

Happy Birthday!

2011-08-10T07:13:00.001-07:00

Happy Birthday Love ! :3

Happy 16th Birthday Noor Haikaaal ! You're 16th, chey . Hahaa , hope you had fun yesterday & hope you love the present from all of us :D Your O Levels is in a few months. Please study hard & don't be too relaxed. Yknow I want you to pass & go to the course which you wanna go to. Please work really really hard. I'll be right behind ya' okay love? Hmm . Make your family proud. Remember your promise to me okay haikal? Study hard baby . <3

I love you .

Happy Birthday Zyzy ! :D

Hello! Happy Birthday ! Though I may not know you that well , but happy birthday ! You're really a friendly person :D & pretty tooo. I love your cheek bone. kekeke . Okay , thank you for making yesterday real fun! HAPPY BIRTHDAY :D

xoxo, haziqahsidek.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!!

2011-08-10T06:46:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE . HAPPY 46TH . YOU'RE SMOKING HOT.

So yesterday , around 4pm , i met Ashleykin , Aiman Faiz & Syazwan Sakai . We trained to Raffles Place & then walked all the way to Marina Bay Residences .On the way, I met their friends , Shaiful & Zam ! Friendly people :D & they joined us . So then later, we fetch TianNing , Jody & Min Sen as they were lost. Well , everybody was lost ! HAHA . So we headed to this patch of grass to sit down as it wasn't packed & we figured that that would be a nice spot to enjoy the scenery of the fireworks . So we settled down , camwhored, talked crap while waiting for Yusuf & the rest to come .

Later, Yusuf & the rest reached here too. But they got lost ! ( i told you all of us were lost ) . So they came and we sat around , talking. Asri & Shakirin came soon after. Then , Shakir & Zyzy came too . When it was time to break fast, we all drank only a can of water & shared some chips. I wasn't that hungry as I didn't have the appetite to eat. So yeah , we sat around , waiting for the fireworks to appear . However, before the fireworks came out going pewpewpew , we gave haikal his present :D He was so shocked. We sang for him & people around us all look at us . HAHAHA .

So throughout the fireworks , Aiman & Syazwan was the noisiest i tell you! They kept making noises and asking me to take pics of them while the fireworks appeared at the back. Funny people. Hahaha , also , my flash created problem during the fireworks . :( Saddd. So after the fireworks ended , what else? WE CAMWHORED . :D :D :D .

So we went back to raffles place, super packed i tell you . i swear it was damn stuffy and i was being pushed around. :( So , yusuf , shakir & zyzy dropped off at payar lebar i think , they went to bazaar. Tianning , jody , minsen , ting swan , guo shen , teng fong all went to their own ways . Syazwan , Aiman , Haikal , Tin , Asri , Shakirin , Ashleykin & Me headed to Tampines intending to eat at Food Culture but it was closing already . Thus they went to KFC. It was already 10 & I was freaking out thus I headed home . Love send me home. Thank you baby :3 .

IT WAS SUCH A WONDERFUL DAY . OMG . CAN IT HAPPEN AGAIN PLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLSPLS :(

I LOVE HANGING OUT W THOSE PEOPLE. NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME SMILE. HAHAHAHA.LOVE YOU ALL.

xoxo, haziqahsidek.

2011-08-07T07:26:00.000-07:00

i'm upset w myself. i really am. sigh. why the heck did i change . just why.

2011-08-07T06:30:00.000-07:00

441 post. damn.

okay hello. i've got the sudden urge to blog. i dont know why. sigh, why is my life so terrible. tsk :(

so, the fasting month has started since monday , & i've been fasting full till sunday , which is 1 week ! YAY . hahhaha. left w 3 more weeks. woohoo.

and sad enough, my whole family got sick. it all started from my parents and then it passed down to my brother, and then my second sister , and then my first sister and then me . omg. yes , im the last one. SAD OR WHAT. sobsob. yes , its the norm . fever, cough , flu , headache. always this four. sigh.

ok so yeah . its monday tomorrow and i have no school :B HAHHAHAHAA . jealous not? HAHAHAHAHAH . ok shut up ok bye.

HAHAHAHA.

" you jelly? " " no, im peanut butter. " LOLOLOL .

goodbye.

haziqahsidek.

2011-08-02T06:39:00.000-07:00

why do you have to leave me? i dont blame you but why do you have to do that? i honestly dont understand why. i feel so upset. i dont blame you for making this decision , but why do you have to do it so abruptly ? it hurts me.. alot . )': you think that there are many people that are gonna cheer me up after what you've done.. but no.. love.. i'm all alone.. )':

i'm all alone..

2011-08-02T05:49:00.000-07:00

i hate how i type everything out but then i ctrl+a + backspace everything. sigh. who will ever understand me.

2011-07-24T02:55:00.000-07:00

HOLLA.

going to do project w tianning later on. bringing my laptop along to do research so yeah. hahaa . hmm , i still got homework to do ( maths and eng ) . i might be doing maths w tn. need help w maths !!! i can do eng within 45 minutes ( its a practice taught by ms tay ) . Well , thanks to ms tay i need not spend forever on summary. ;)

so , i'll try to be home before 9? cos meeting tn at 6:45. hmm. omg , im like scared yknow ! hahhaha. crazyy hor me. ok la maybe because i've never gone out at evening before . Sighhh.

gotta ciao ! leaving house at 6:15 ;)

2011-07-23T07:48:00.000-07:00

Hello. Community walk tmrw. Sigh. So lazy to go. Hopefully I'd be able to wake up.
Sigh, what happened? What happened between us? Its like we're both not like how we use to be. Its like we have drifted you know? & its very sad that this is happening. I know I've changed. You did too. We both did. Its very sad love. I really miss you. The old you. I really do. Sigh. I miss the old us even more, the mostest in fact.. I really wish this 95 days would pass by pretty fast :( And by then we'd be able to celebrate our one year, even if we're late by 3 or 4 days. I don't mind waiting a lil while. Because its all for you baby. Its all fr you. Sigh, i love you . )': 

2011-07-17T08:12:00.000-07:00

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY EUNICE HEHEHEHE WILL DO A PROPER BDAY POST SOON . hehehehhehe

2011-07-17T03:47:00.000-07:00

Hai. Omg, i'm trying to blog frm phone. Hmm, hope it works out. Lol. Thanks Khaliesah for helping me :)
Sigh, i'm lying on my bed, procasinating. Damn, i should be doing my homework right now but ugh. :/ sighhhh. I'm so tired. Psssssh. Okay lah byebye! :)

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2011-07-16T07:26:00.000-07:00

photography competition which i sent this pic in ( the flower ) & below, is one of the pic frm lcc.

omg. so damn cool.

thats all.

~~will blog when i feel like it.~~

will blog whenever i can.

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2011-07-16T07:17:00.000-07:00

433 post.

ok . i blog again. i'm really bored. and i really have nothing to do. ok, maybe besides homework but its so late and i'm so sleepy and i don't have the mood. excuses haziqah sidek. tsktsk.

i miss LCC. i miss being part of the photographer :\ yknow, its an awesome privilege to actually go there and be sponsored by Canon to take photos of this soccer. i'm suddenly into soccer photography. ok that's great. at least i know i have an interest in it. who knows one day i might get another chance. heh heh .

ok. studies are really killing me. i need to buck up. i need to study hard. ugh haziqah sidek y u no hardworking. sighhhh. i am tired of studying. it tires me out. i get tired too easily. what's wrong w my body. i think its physically breaking down. oh no. sigh nonsense haziqahsidek.

i actually wanted to do a real post yknow. w tons of pics. and i bet no one will read my nonsense. tsk, ok next post i post photos ok. ok love you readers. xo

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2011-07-16T07:07:00.000-07:00

hai blogger. i'm so tired. its been a long time since i've blogged. and i really miss it. i miss being able to share everything. writing down memories so that when i grow old ( or in case i forget ) i would be able to read this blog and remember what happened. sadly, i'm just too busy w school, that i rarely use my laptop. seriously. sigh.]

i'm so tired, i feel like sleeping already. and i don't feel like typing in caps lock. ok maybe, i only type in caps lock when i'm excited. sigh. i can't stop sighing. uh.

life has been pretty much fine. i don't like the way it is, and there's nothing that i can do to change it. ok maybe there is.. to fake a smile and then everyone will think you're okay, and you'll lie to yourself , and you'll pretend that everything's okay. why? why do we pretend? why do we have to hide ? why can't we just show others how we feel?

just why.. okay. this is just a random post. you've wasted 3 minutes of yr precious time in your like by reading this. sorry .

anyway, i feel alone. i feel lonely. :\

2011-07-02T09:00:00.000-07:00

hai haikal. i miss you. please come back? i love you. veryvery much.

haikal. zeroseven - eleven.

2011-07-02T08:38:00.000-07:00

hai haikal..

i miss you ald. now you're gone. just like that. i miss you.

i will remember all our memories together. i will remember everything. hopefully yes, depending on my memory. i really am sorry. if you're wondering if i regret my actions.. yeah .. i do regret my actions.. i don't know about you though..

haikal.. i just want you to remember yr promise about you going up the stage so that you can make both yr parents proud.. please continue to keep that promise haikal.. pleaase??..

i dont know if you will read this but if you do.. i want you to know that i love you very much . and i miss you . )':

2011-07-02T05:31:00.000-07:00

I just want someone from my family or my circle of friends to understand me.

who am i actually.

2011-07-02T05:17:00.000-07:00

Here i am. wondering if im ever gonna be a good person. wondering if i really am part of this family. wondering if this is the real me. wondering if this is gonna be the me that i'll see in ten years time. is this me?

Tears just flow. Yeah i know. childish, cry baby or whatever. but really... i just wonder.. if this the real me? is this the haziqah im gonna see in ten years time? is this the haziqah that is gonna be the same or will she change?

is the haziqah that is now so mean and evil and egoistic , will she be the same when she grow older? will she?

i dont want to be the same haziqah. i am tired of this haziqah . i hate the sight of myself. i hate it. i hate how egoistic, how evil, how mean i can be.. i jjust hate myself. i just hate who i have become. i hate how i hurt people w my words. i hate how i make people hate me w my words. i hate myself. i hate myself. i just ... hate who i have become.

why am i not dead yet. why. why am i still fucking alive. why am i still alive when all i do is push and continue pushing and hurt and continue hurting others. why am i still even alive... i just dont want to hurt people anymore.

i'm sorry. i think im better off gone.

LION CITY CUP. :D

2011-06-17T07:28:00.000-07:00

HARLOW ! :D

( photo supposed to be the other way round -.- but this blogger something wrong. )

OKOK I AM VERY SEXCITED. NO ONE KNOWS HOW EXCITED I AM. OMG SO THRILLING. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

( ok my mood is ruined. )

anyway , i'll be covering the 20th June match. catch me on teevee ok . hehhehehehe ok ok ok bye ! need do my research. :D

love, haziqahsidek. xx

I've learned to live.

2011-06-11T07:07:00.000-07:00

hey . (:

Holidays been here for two weeks already. I managed to spent my 1st week all fine. But my second week, gosh. I was sick for the whole week . )': Veryvery sad. Had fever, tummyache & headache. The fever and headache went away, but tummyache stayed. Stayed for the whole week. I googled, they say its necessary to visit the doctor if your stomach hurts more than two days. :x Hope its nothing serious! ):

Went to town this morning with Kak Long & Ayesha and amali. Went Takashimaya, Wisma Atria, & Paragon. Great day! Might be going out again with them next sunday. :D

This 3rd week is a busybusybusy week. Mon might be free. Tues might be going out with farah. Wednesday is Sis Birthday. Thursday might be free. Friday is workshop. Saturday is workshop & concert. :DDDD. Sunday is outing. So, i think i will be finishing up my homework by Monday ! SIGH. bigbig SIGH. Hope my tummy won't act up :D

Sigh, that's all. :D .

love, haziqahsidek.

2011-06-05T06:51:00.000-07:00

They say you take pictures to express yourself.

Isn't that what all photography is all about?

Passion. Expressing yourself. Telling others about yourself through photos.

& so one day, I'll take pictures and slowly build up my portfolio .

I take photos not to impress but to express.

Sigh. I guess I'm egoistic and selfish. F's word really hit me badly. & I mean really badly. It hurts, hearing that from yr 11 yrs best friend. & so, I really regretted my actions.. I do.. I admit, I regret. I found the workshop a waste of time and I would rather have went to Malacca. But its over and I just gotta move on and live with it right?

Sigh.. I shall try to change. :l

~~fuck ego.~~

2011-05-30T08:36:00.001-07:00

Do you know that feeling when you have hit the rock bottom? Yeah. That feeling. Do you know how painful it feels like? Its so fucking painful. I want to cry, but I'm holding it back. Reason being because I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of crying over the simplest things. Tired of crying over small matters.

it hurts. it hurts so much. it hurts even more now.

idk how to explain how i feel now.

ANNUAL SPEECH DAY . FIESTAAAA . LION KING. RAAAAAWR.

2011-05-25T01:30:00.000-07:00

HEYYYO! :D

Annual Speech Day :

Annual Speech Day was an awesome event. Though it was tiring & very long it was very very good. I really look up to the teachers that actually organised this event. Congratulations to all the winners who went up the stage to receive their prizes. Kinda felt proud for them as a schoolmate/classmate/friends . Hehe . Great event though i was really exhausted & didn't enjoy much at Fiesta ): :D

fav eng teacher ^^

i miss mr leee!

Polaroid <3.

love this pic <3.

MARDIAH. gorgeous girl . :>

FIESTA@BNSS'11 :

So after Annual Speech Day , we had fiesta from 6pm - 9pm ! Awesome event. Sold our muffins quite fast. Hehee. since i was tired, so slacked through the event since I was not on duty. Was really tired okay :< But it was really a good & exciting & awesome event ! ^^. Went back home with love on that day <3.

While watching movie. My class very slack! all spread out, some lie down ! AWESOME CLASS.

waiting for food. very hungry :<

CUTE JAMES . & irritating joshua ! :D

Waiting fr bus to come . :D

THE LION KING . TICKETS <3.

While waiting for time to pass by........

THE LION KING MUSICAL 240511 . :

AWESOME MUSICAL . IT WAS LEGEND ... WAIT FOR IT .... DARY ! :D

So we had school as per normal , then after school, had a short break then we watched Diary Of A Wimpy Kid @ Hall! My class was very slacky. We spread out . Lied down lah. Go toilet lah. Yada yadayada . My most awesome class ever <3.

Then , went canteen for our dinner, but the van was stucked in a jam at PIE or smth . HAHAH. so went back class to put our bag , and then went down back & had out food. ^^ So full by then ! went back class again, to wait fr instructions by mr yeo before we can come down to concourse ! Took our bus and arrived at Marina Bay Sands Convention Center ! EXCITED. Camwhored a looooooooooooooooooot. hehehehehee. then we walked to the theatre ! WAH. Saw alot of branded shops. to die for siah the things there . x.x HAHAHAHA.

Went inside the theatre camwhored a bit and then the show started. Had a break then the show continued playing ! Overall it was VERY VERY GOOD. WORTH THE MONEY ! :D

went back to school , went to inter then mama fetched me, went home, wipe myself wet then slept !

So i slept till 1 plus today. 11 hrs of sleep. Was very exhausted :<

Luckily today no school, did my elearning , left with maths. shall do it later.

THAT'S ALL .

love ya readers :D

HAZIQAHSIDEK.

6th Month ♥

2011-05-14T06:31:00.000-07:00

Noor Haikal .

Hai love. Sorry there's no picture. Hehe. lazy lah put :b

Alright , - background information - . On the 11th of May, it was Noor Haikal's & mine 6th Month. Half a year. I mean, I have never been this far. & i'm sure this r'ship will go far ahead . (:

I know we'll last forever, like you said (':

Throughout this six months. I really appreciate what you have done for me. Indeed, there's a lot that you have done. I'm just gonna keep it short so I'm not gonna list it all done. But , really . From the bottom of my heart. I really am appreciative of what you have done for me, love.

I know I have always made you upset. Got you hurt. I'm sorry. You know it wasn't on purpose. Anyway, its all in the past six months. More might come, I mean, not from me. Like problems you know? We'll overcome it together alright baby? I know we will .

I'm willing to hold your hand and walk forward together with you on this path. Are you ? (:

Just remember, i love you . Always will, always have. ♥

2011-05-14T06:09:00.000-07:00

HOLLA . I LOIKE MY BITCH HERE.

O.O I want donutss ! had been craving for them since like what? last month? T^T . Poor me T^T

Compare 1. & 2. Which one better?
PS : No. 1 is from tumblr . No. 2 is taken by me.

OKAY HELLO. -HUGS BLOG TIGHTLY -

i miss blogging. meow. sorry. been busy with MYE ( reason why i went MIA ) Sheesh. Was very stressed. Got my results back. Ain't satisfying. I see my iphone being confiscated back by my mama. :l

Anyways. A lot of things has happened. May is a very hectic month for me. Serious. Next week, on the 17th would be YUSUF'S BIRTHDAY ! HAHA. not celebrating it on the actual day cos its Vesak Day. Haha! then, on friday, the 20th, it would be Annual Speech Day cum Fiesta@BNSS'11 ! Big event. Would be on duty . -.-

HAHA. you all wasted your time reading tht sentence with pauses . hahaha. ok anyway. im gonna do that. serious. nt kidding.

After the weekend, on the 24th, Tuesday, we'll be going for lion king ! WHOOPWHOOP. Super excited ! hehehehehee. going MBS theater to watch Lion King. Seniors said it was good. I really hope it is ! hehehe. the next day it would be wednesday & its the last week of school! & THEN ITS THE

HOLIDAYS !!!

WAHWAH. i super excited ! kekeke . okayokay! shall end here.

hmmm , will write another post soon alright ! (:

love, haziqahsidek .

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2011-04-30T06:25:00.001-07:00

Come on, yknow you wanna ask :D http://formspring.me/HaziqahSidek

2011-04-27T03:03:00.000-07:00

HELLO ! :D

MYE NOW .

Heheheeee . 4 more papers then im done with MYE !!!! :D

yay , so excited. then after mye , i wanna go marina barrage !! :D

hehehhehehehhehee . so excted. and after MYE the next day is love's & mine 7th month ;B

we we we so excited!

Okay , tmrw no school . Friday : lit paper.

Monday no school .

Tues : geog paper.

wednesday : no school i think :O

thurs : maths paper.( either its wed or thurs no holiday . either one :O )

Fri : sci paper. (last paper last paper )

SAT : 7TH MONTH WOOHOOOOOOO.

okay too excited. kkthxbye! hehehhe. i love my boyfriend manymanymany ♥.

hs.

2011-04-23T07:07:00.000-07:00

You know how it feels when you're just standing there, and you're surrounded by everyone . You look around , & you know everyone. But not even one person there cares about you . You know that feeling? Its even worse when you see your parents somewhere there , but they don't care about you because they're busy caring about their other children.

It sucks when tears are rolling down your cheeks , but your mum is laughing away in tears of joy.

It sucks when she doesn't even care what you do in school.

It sucks when she doesn't even try to know what's happening in your life.

It sucks when she doesn't even trust you when you say you are studying outside .

It really sucks.

2011-04-20T08:00:00.000-07:00

I tried okay. I tried so hard. I didn't ask you to go online . neither did i ever want ignore you eh. I tried. All i want is for us to be happy throughout for one whole day. Is it even that hard? Hard meh? Oh ya , wait . Its hard. Of course its hard . Because of me right? Ya i know . I always get angry. Root of problem : ME . Clearly explains everything -___- You think i'm not trying meh? You think i'm not hurt meh? I'm trying so hard. Even one of my friends can see that i'm very miserable right now. That i'm sick yet i'm trying to cope with studies and you and everything else in my life. How come it does not seem obvious to you that i'm trying very hard? How come its not obvious to you that i really am tired of everything that we can't even be happy for one whole day? Ahhh, hate my life x10000000000000.

:c

2011-04-17T07:32:00.000-07:00

Do you know that feeling when everything always doesn't go right and you're always angry. & you're already trying your best . but it seems like you have never tried. You tried. You tried so hard to make things right , but things never goes right. & then , you just hit the rock bottom. You tried moving up. But each time you do , it just makes you hit the rock bottom again & again. All you could do , is just swallow everything and just suffer there.

Do you know that feeling? Do you ? )';

What are words?

2011-03-27T07:26:00.001-07:00

HARLOWWW!!

Okay , school has been on for one week ald. & school starts tomorrow :\ . Monday Blues.

Timetable changed > suckish ttm > not even a day of relaxation > suffering .

Haishhhhhh. Life has been pretty alright. Great friends around me ! hehehee.

Last friday was TIANNINGG 's Birthday! huhu . Celebrated on thurs, since on fri she got cca. On saturday, went out in the morning to meet Farah Salleh ( her make- up meet up) hahaa , went home , then met love and went for tuition . after tuition went to mustafa center then went to parkway parade to shop at CO ! hehehehehe.

Bought new clothes. So happy :> hehehe , might be wearing them when i meet Lailaa, Bahiyyah , Ashikkin & Tian Ning to go to Marina Barrage ! hehehe ^^ then fly kite there huhu ^^

OKAY , I WAS SELECTED FOR THE EV THINGY . WEY WHERE CAN LIKE THIS . CHER I GOT HOLD POSITION OKAY. I SECETARY . LOLOLOL hahaha k kidding .

must memorise all the school stuffs seh :\ lazy lahhh , somemore i don't have a good memory . stm somemore. later the person from MOE come ask me how. i dk how to ans and i so nervous then everything i rmbr forget how ?!

okay shut up haziqahsidek.hahahahahahahahhahahaa. okay , bye lahh! my life so boring !!! HAHAHHA BYE .

HS.

We missed our flight to paris. Pooorrrr girls wearing white ):

2011-03-16T07:14:00.000-07:00

HAI EVERYONE ! :>

Sorry for not updating for so long ): been busy with ... well .. life? HAHAHA . okay , craps. School has been okay. results are bad. life is fine , major problems > major pimple breakout . :O

Okay whatever. So today , went out with this two hot pretty & gorgeous girls! it was awkward at first but it got better then . hehehehehehe .went to changi airport and they helped me with my project and then we stopped doing it and we decided to camwhore !

SEEE , this is bahiyyah . She is so damn drop dead gorgeous , among all the pictures. she always has that beautiful face ! Omg , god damn jealous please ): & she very cuteeee !!!

Look at them , so fashionable , so gorgeous. -jealous mode -

alright ! this is ashikkin! she is very friendly and hyper. she loves to make people laugh ( i guess ). She's very fashionable. I LOIKE . she has wonderful and nice clothes which she buys online and wherever. hhahahaha , i like her shoes . omgggggg.

This is bahiyyah's new camera ! its so cool , portable and and so affordable ! it has effects and and it can do so many things. omg . HAHAHAH. AND ITS 14.1 MEGAPIXELS OKAY!!! and i think she bought it for $199? I guess so :)

pretty ashikkin ! ^^

OKAY BYEEEEE (:

Yknow him? He's mine. ^^

2011-02-19T08:20:00.000-08:00

Noor Haikaaal .

He's one of a kind. He's special. He's unique. He makes me laugh even though he says things that doesn't make sense. He stares at me just to make me smile. He pokes me each time he can't make out what i was trying to say . He loves to imitate me. He always says " Ya ya ya ya " which will irritate me , but i still find it rather hilarious. He always try to cheer me up when i'm sad. He make sures i am happy and safe all the time . He always calm me down whenever i'm angry . He always decide what is best for me( e.g. asking me to sleep when i'm really tired.)

He gives me love , care , concern and everything else that I need. Tell me , what more can i ask from him?

Hai love , if you're reading this right now , i wanna say that I love you alright? Though I might not be the best for you at times , i'm trying my best. I really want us to last very long. I don't want us to have any fights ( do we even have fights? ) , tantrums or either one of us , feeling moody anymore. We must always stay positive and be happy okay? I also want you to know that , you're the best I ever had. I love you , (:

Hehe , i don't know what else to write already. One thing for sure , He is my life . & he is the only one i love . My one and only. (:

Noor Haikaaal , one & only love. ^-^

07-11.

Love, haziqahsidek.

" i love you . "

2011-02-19T07:48:00.000-08:00

HELLO !!!!

" you know it , when i love you . "

Hello! Hehe , been a long time since I last updated. I guess? hahahaha. Anyway , everything is pretty cool right now. Life is great. (Y)

Hehe , went to Botanical Gardens today! Such a great place for walking , taking scenery pictures. Its a great place guys ! (: Hahhaa , bought my camera along . Went home, slept like a pig till 5. got ready and all , went to Paternal's for tuition. Went whitesands for yoghurt then home.

Great day though , except for some things that happened in between , but , i guess its all good now. Hehehe , i cannot wait for monday!!! I want to meet NOOR HAIKAAAL . XD . Hehhehee.

Okay , next post is about him. Stay wimme peopleeeeee ~

HAZIQAHSIDEK.

2011-02-14T05:27:00.000-08:00

HARLOW !!!!!

Lazy put pics ah . Anyway , great day today ! HEHEHE . thank you so much dearest love. !

I love you very the much okayokayokayokay ! :B

<333333333

2011-02-12T19:50:00.000-08:00

HELLO . (;

Happy 3rd Month Love! :>

Hellohello . hekhek , our 3rd month was on friday kkkkk. hehehehehe.

School has been fine lately , except that i'm always coming home late due to some stuffs and i have to stayback in school for quite a long time. & a whole lot of projects and tests were coming up. This week , is one whole week of torture for me ):

I hope I won't get this kind of torture anymore. Anyway , I passed my Maths CE , by ..... 1 mark ! Omg , need to buck up! Thank god i passed . Alhamdullilah . Hope to pass my science too! :B

Tomorrow is Valentines. Anyone celebrating it? One thing for sure , i'm not gonna celebrate it. Haha , to those out there celebrating it , HAVE FUN CELEBRATING WITH YOUR LOVE ONES . (:

Ayesha & Amali were over yesterday . Sadly , that little ayesha was sick ): Poor little girl . Pity her. Also had my tuition yesterday. It was great , i like it very the much :B

OMG IM BLABBERING . What should i blog about? Anyway , a post about something is comin up real soon! most probably tmrw or tonight ! :>

OKAY CIAO .

HAZIQAHSIDEK.

2011-02-05T07:22:00.000-08:00

hello !!! :>

The kiddos were here yesterday ! & i love them extremely so much ! ^-^ . Look how cute they are !!! XDD . I feel so jealous of their hair & eyes & cuteness. :B I want to be a eurasian can? HEKHEK. XD

Sadly they went back this afternoon with their mummy & daddy ); Sobsob i miss them ald D; Heard they will be back this coming friday ! YAY . AWESOME ^-^

Watched 3 movies today ! yay me ! I watched Easy A , Mean Girls , Mean Girls 2 . I've got the movie called " The Clique " on my playist now. Will watch it sooon! ANY GOOD MOVIES TO RECOMMEND GUYS ? FORMSPRING ME !!!

www.formspring.me/HaziqahSidek

OKAY BYE I LOVE YOU ALL.

PS : im trying to post like ashleykin , they way she post. i think idw do like this anymore ): so stresssss. HAHAHAHAHHAA. i rather type normally . :B OH WELL , opinions differ right ! :>

HAZIQAHSIDEK

Purrrrr.

2011-02-04T06:08:00.000-08:00

HARLOWWWWWW ~

EVERYTHING IS GONNA BE ALRIGHT.

Hello! hello ! So today i went out . YAY .

So i went to farzana's crib to do our malay project. So fun! Thenthen , sent the thing to raudah house then waited for love at 133. 65-ed to tampines and then train-ed to Pasir Ris . Walked to Pasir Ris Beach. & then 17-ed back home ! :>

Somethings happened in between but then in the end , everything was alright . Hekhek , i love noor haikal !

I don't know what to blog about ): Can anyone gimme ideas on what i shd blog ? Formspring me okay ! :>

thats all ! toddles !

HAZIQAHSIDEK

Meow . -purrs-

2011-02-03T07:13:00.001-08:00

Hello .

I'm the most boring person in the whole wide world. I'm the slowest person in the whole wide world. I'm the most silliest human being on earth. :\

I don't mind doing all this for you , because i love you. & i really do. Anyway ,i doubt you would even care..

I really should be sleeping right now. I don't know why i am still not asleep yet.. Something is bothering me, but i don't know what. I really want to find out , but just don't have the courage too.. Anyway , who cares right?

I am upset , do you even know that? Sometimes , i feel like saying , go ahead without me. You'll be fine.

Things should be fine. It must be fine. Its February already. I want things to be good. I don't want anything bad . & i think that whatever i do , it will affect everything .

I''m holding on to that promise. Can't you see?

I don't know what to say . I'm just gonna keep quiet & bear with it. Put on a fake front & survive everything with a fake smile.

bearing with everything. can't you seeee?

HAZIQAHSIDEK.

HARLOW .

2011-02-02T21:29:00.000-08:00

HAI DOMO. HAI HUMANS . HAI LOVE . HAI EVERYBODY !!! :>

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR . ITS THE BUNNY YEAR. YAY .

HAHAHA . okay , idk why i am so excited. Happy CNY to all of you ~ Have fun collection angpao's . XD. Hehhehee , anyway , i just put a Facebook LIKE button on my blog ! Its under my profile. HEH , click like okayyy! Thank you so much :> . & btw , i'm kinda amazed by the number. I just put it ike around 1 hour ago? & its like 100+ plus ald? Tyvm people ^-^

Yesterday we were released early , met farah & afifah , nana & mira . Sang abit & it rained. Sobsob. So went back home since it was Papa's birthday ! Had no celebration cos papa didn't want to go out ): Saddddd. Stayed at home. Then , mama asked me to go over to grannies to sleep there to accompany my grannie . So , i did. But met love before that.^^.

So yeah . I'm still here. I want meet love ); I miss him so much leh! Sobsob .

Anyway , did some things to my blog .

- Added the FB LIKE on my blog .

- Changed Tagboard to formspring .

- Changed my DP.

So , if you wanna relink or link or anything just formspring me okay? (: hehehehehee. okay , idk what to blog ald. Hahahhaahahaaaaa.

OKAY BYEBYEBYEBYEBYE . I LOVE YOU ALL . -hugs&kisses-

I LOVE NOORHAIKAAL TOO OKAY ! ^-^

HAZIQAHSIDEK.

What's your first & current impression of me ?

2011-01-29T06:36:00.001-08:00

What's your first & current impression of me ?

Answer here

Dissapointment .

2011-01-29T05:49:00.000-08:00

Dissapointment :

One word i would describe myself.

2011-01-17T05:46:00.000-08:00

HARLOW HARLOW :D

Choose one of the photoshoot photos above. Choose one & then tag my blog ! :D . A small favour please? ^^

Haihai . School was alright . I hate it so much but what to do . Just bear with it lah. So much homework to do . Sobsob . But oh wells , as Ms Lim would say . " Sec 2 life no rest ah . All the way workworkworkwork " . Oh wells . Come on Haziqah !!! I know you can do it ! :B . Hehehhee . Kay , i hope there's enough motivation for me . hekhek .

Okay. Anyway . Life is being average. Suckish . Depressing & manymany more lah . I just don't like it ); . I feel like crying for no reason . Be upset for no reason . Be mad for no reason. Something is wrong with me . HaziqahSidek mah . Everything seems wrong in my life ..... :\ .

Anyway, this is supposed to be a happy post. See lah see lah. Weird me -______- .

OKAY. JUST DO ME A FAVOUR. JUST CHOOSE ONE NUMBER FROM NUMBER 1-4 . THEN TAG MY BLOG . PLEASEPLEASEPLEASE. HEHEHEHEHE. :B. I love you all ! :>

Tags Reply (after so longggg ) :

Lailaall : HEHEH, yay ! thank you thank you. hehehehhee . Sure will :>

Robiaatul : HARLOWWWWWW.

Azyan : Oh i see. Sure will , asap . (:

MyraInsyirah (: : Hehhe, thank you .

Syazwani : Alright . (: Asap yeah?

Haikaal : Tahu pun -___- . Hhahaha , alright . i love you too.

Sharifah : Harlow ! :> Asap yeah?

Robiaatul : kekeke . thank you thank you .

Ashleykin : Update ald ! hehehe, & yeah , true that twisting your hair into a bun makes your hair curly too! :>

WAH , OKAY . TAG KAY . MWAHMWAH .

BYE . I love you alll .

HAZIQAHSIDEK.

What's the best thing that happened to you in 2010?

2011-01-12T05:45:00.001-08:00

Best thing? Everything that has happened in 2010 . Whatever i did was the best for myself , my friends & my loved ones. However , the real best thing is meeting my love <3. & also meeting all of the people in BNSS ( who rock alot & are & is awesome. ) & also people through Twitter / Facebook . :>

Curious? Ask. (:

CURLS ANYONE? :>

2011-01-09T05:07:00.000-08:00

EVER WONDERED HOW TO MAKE YOUR HAIR CURLY ? :)

ITS EASY . AS 1 2 3 . :>

Now , get yourself a brush and a rubber band . It will be better if you have the rubber band like the ones cotton is all around it. ( if you get what i mean ) . Brush your hair to avoid any tangles . Now , i wish i could have done a video , but i guess this video would help on how you could do self french braid ! :>

Now , to do this french braid. Its veryveryvery easy ! I watched it once & i knew how to do it ald. Of course , practice makes perfect & with practices , you would be able to do it nicely . (:

So , once you've done the french braid , leave it for at least 3-5 hours? Or if you would want it to be slightly curly for a longer time , you can do it overnight !

As you can see the pictures of myself . That is what happened when i tied french braid for about 3-4 hours. The curls are really nice ! & it even looked like as if it was permed.

EASY? NOW YOU CAN DO IT TOO . :>.

Another way is that , you can tie fishtail for at least 3-5 hours too . & then you'll be able to have temporary curls . I don't have the pictures of the curls , but it did turned out nice too ! Here's how you can do fishtail .

Just look at the second part will do . Thats where she does the fishtail braid . (:

This post is inspired by : Ainul Khairina's tweet .

& the two videos . :>

HAZIQAHSIDEK .

2011-01-07T05:57:00.000-08:00

HARLOWWWWWWWW .

Kekeke . School is very tiring kay ):

So on wednesday , we had school . obviously lah -___- . Had cca after that. Home .

Thursday : school started at 9.45 . Went to school with Love , Yusuf & Tn . Hahaha , so funny. Had school , was s'okay . home with love . <3.

Friday : Hmm , today was boring ): yet fun yet tiring. had school , did stuffs. copied eng ans , went home , changed , went turf city to picked ayesha up . went to suntec . then grannie's. then home. & here i am.

Sorry for the shortshort update. Supposed to do advert on my .. my.. nail polish .. but but , i havent upload my pics. HAHAHA> so lazy -__________- .

Anyway , i just bought my new school bag ! Yay. Jansport baby <3.>

I need it badly. My old bag has a tore already. sobsobsob . so , new bag frm UK , come soon k ! :'<

hehhehehehehhee . YES ITS FROM UK . kekeke . UK bag . First time siah! hahhaahaha . It cost around 50 plus. You guys should check out ebay ! :> Its reaaaaal good. Kekeke , but one disadvantage is you must pay by creditcard :| Yeap. hahahahhaa. Okay , idk why im like dragging this stupid post.

geeeez . my eyes cnnt open ald. kay bye ah bye . i is so tired *yawns * bye !

HAZIQAHSIDEK.

What's my school core values? mission? okay nvrm -_______-

2011-01-04T04:29:00.001-08:00

HAIHAIHAIHAIHAI.

School started today , lessons tomorrow . Awesome :\

I don't think i would update about my getaway & special events & stuffs , i guess. I don't really have the time . ( or besides the fact that i'm pretty lazy ) . LOL . K , anyway , i shall start about how boring class today is . * Okay great. twitter is hanging on me . lalalalala . *

Alright . So went to school > met tiann ningg > briefing > class > recess > class -___- > hall > class -____- > tamp 1 > grannies > home.

I was so tired T^T . That , the moment after i lied down on grannie's bed , i was fucking asleep ( like a pig , shd i say ) . Damn tired siahhhh. I slept for 2 hours straight. hehehehe. Sedap ! :> . Hmm , just wrapped my books. Not all ah , abit only. So , Lesson starts tomorrow . :\

I have MT > Recess > DNT > PE > Maths .

at least its okay . Thurs is a torture. School starts at 9.45 . Ends at 3.45 . Oh my love. :<

Fri is kinda okay. Everything is alright , i guess. I only have ms lim as my maths teacher , mr chan my dnt & ms sng , my ft the same. That kinda sucks . Hmm , i really like my old teachers. Oh wells . :\

Okay , i'm rather down & i don't feel like talking. Baibaibai . :>

HAZIQAHSIDEK .

2011 , you're here already ! :>

2010-12-30T06:05:00.000-08:00

HAIHAI .

2011 resolutions ! :D

So , i've decided to do a resolution . Last year , i was free enough to do resolutions for my family , friends & myself. Sadly , this year , i'm in malaysia and not able to have the time to do for family, friends . Maybe , i would . But , i'll keep it short & simple . (:

This year , my resolutions for myself would be :

- To be happy .

- Freedom , oh please. ):

- Pass sec 2 & then get to a class which i want . ( means no A Maths . )

- Have a lot of fun . Enjoy myself .

- MAKE 2011 THE BEST YEAR EVER. OKAY , BETTER THAN 2010 PLEASE. :>

That's all . Hehehee . Now , for my family :

- No more fights .

- No more embarrassments please.

- Happy always .

- Live like how normal family would be. (:

That's all . Now , for my friends :

- BE HAPPY . ^^

- No more fights .

- Go out & have fun .

- Party like there's no tomorrow .

- Shop till we drop .

- Slack till we cannot slack .

- Explore singapore till we get bored of singapore.

KEKEKE . That's all . & for the friends , including my best bitches , my abang , my bestfriends , close friends & everybody else ! :D

& now , for my love.

NOOR HAIKAL :

HAI LOVE. kekeke .

I really hope 2011 will be alright for the two of us. You'll be having your major exams & i'm having streaming. So , i'll hope we'll be able to go through it together without any problems. Maybe we would have it , but , we'll go through it . (:

I'll hope we'll both will last long . hehe . & we'll be happy with one another. No attitude no anything okay ? & i wanna thank you for being patient with me & everything else. We really love each other. heh.

I love you baby . :>

THATS ALL FOLKS. I LOVE YOU ALL . :>

Love , HaziqahSidek.

2010-12-29T23:16:00.000-08:00

HAI . IM AT MSIA NOW . AT MY AUNTS HOUSE & IM LYING ON THE SWING * MOVIE REMINSCE* . LOL KIDDING .

WILL BE BACK TOMORROW. LOVE YOU ALL . xoxo.

Sadly , i ain't able to make a resolution post for 2011 .Wish , i could do it. Maybe later tonight . But , no promises. I love you all . (;

HARLOW.

2010-12-28T06:55:00.000-08:00

HELLO !

I'M GOING MALAYSIA FROM WEDNESDAY TILL FRIDAY . REAL SORRY . WILL UPDATE REAL SOON .

I LOVE YOU ALL READERS. DON'T MISS ME K . :B.

XOXO.

Love , HaziqahSidek.

Hey baby .

2010-12-21T06:28:00.000-08:00

Ollo :>

Hey babygirl , what you doing tonight ? i'm gonna see what you got in store.

Hello! I'm back I'm back ! KEKEKE . Alot people has been asking me to update my blog. Is my blog that intresting ? :O

Hahaha , alright . I shall start my "overdued yet old yet -intresting- " stories naowww :B

Shit. I forgot what i did . Wait ah . :B

14th : Went Tamp & PP . Wanted to repair my old phone but , the service center at vivo , so went back home. :B

15th : Went to geylang to find clothes. HEHEH .

16th :Bought new phone. YAY :B . hehehhe.

The 3 days i had then , was so much suffer . Because love wasn't in sg.

17th : Went to uncle sam's . Took pics. ate , then went home :B then he come back ! YAY .

18th : Went to Uncle's . then , to the girls side. Then uncle's . HAHHA. fun day there.

19th : Was the guy's side. Had so much fun . LOL . HEHHEHE.

20th : Stayed at home. Was tired ttm . :\

Today : went secret recipe to celebrate sis bdae. HEHEH.

SORRY IF ITS VERY SUMMARISED. KINDA LAZY :B

Hmm , anyway . I got school tomorrow & thursday ! ):<
&& friday meeting tn , love & yusuf . YAY . hehehehehe.

Kay , thats all for now ! will update more , i promise ! :D

Tags reply :

YUSUF ! : HEHE , okay ! :D thank you abang :D

min : sorry ah sista . me is stm mah XD

YANQING : HAIIIIIIIIIIII.

TIANNINGG : HEHE ALRIGHT .

NurulFaiqah : Sure will! XD

Elly ' Vesta : Thanks ! Will link you ! :)

Shashaaa Tanggoo : Alright :)

Bahiyyah : BAHIYYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH ~ HAHAHA.

Bahiyyah : I do? Wow. HAHAHAH. Thank you :B

TIANNING : Ollo ! Ollo ! Update liao ! :D

Thanks guys for the tags ! Tag more okay :D

Shall stop here now. Byeeee ~

Love , HaziqahSidek.

i miss you.

2010-12-13T04:46:00.000-08:00

HELLO . (:

I miss him so much );

Hellohello! HaziqahSidek is back to blog . LOL . Sounds like as if its not HaziqahSidek who has been blogging all this while ._______. Okay , anyway , shd start blogging .

8th Dec : Did nothing much. Went to school. Met love. Hehehe , waited for 21 so long ): Then we took 8 to tamp inter. Then 38-ed to Bedok Inter. Then , 222-ed back home . Hehe, thank you love for the nice & wonderful day !

9th Dec : Stayed at home . (:

10th Dec : Went out ! HEHEHE . Met love at bus stop. 28-ed to Tamp . then we 65-ed. Intended to go to Vivo . But stopped at Bugis . Wanted to go Haji Lane but i forgot how -.- Then , we 197-ed back to bedok inter. We had a wonderful time in 197 , thanks baby . Then , 222-ed home. (:

11th Dec :

Our One month . I love him so much & i wouldn't let him go . (:
Went to town. Bad day ): Me no like .

12th Dec : Went to town again. Intention was to watch Movie , but changed plan and went to sephora to look at make - up instead. then , went to Breeks to eat. Had great fun there . Sorry baby , i couldn't meet you );

13th Dec :

Woke up early so i could text him before he go . Got ready . Used comp . Then, went to meet fafaaa . Then , waited for Nana & Faaa . Then asyura -.- Went to bugis . Got lost trying to find haji lane , so we made do with what we could. Bought bangles *jumps up & down * then , we decided to go to Esplanade. Went there, & headed to Rooftop but it rained then sat at the Outdoor Theater where it had shelter. Hehehe , took alot of pictures then decided to go bedok to slack before going home . (:

Went home & here i am . (:

more photos at fb .

He's gone. Until thursday or friday . i miss him );

Tag Replies :

Haikaaal : Hehehe yezyez . ^^

My boyfriend & husband : I miss you more & love you more ):

IniFatin : Hello! Sure will . (:

TIANNINGG : HEHE , sweet meh? O.o Lucky ? Why ? HAHAHA.

YUSUF ! : Hehhe , don't be jealous (: Hhehee , thank you . O.o Why lucky siah ? :X

NoorHaikaaaal : HEHEH YES ! I love you too baby . ^^

Fivecar : HEHEH , sorry ah ! okayokay :D

Syabilla Syamien : Thanks ! Nah its alright . Will link you (:

Min : Yes sis . Welcome very the much.

Robiaatul : HI :D

Replied. Tag more okay ! :D

Love , HaziqahSidek .

Love.

2010-12-10T08:05:00.000-08:00

HAPPY ONE MONTH LOVE.

I love you very the much . Don't leave me okay . Kay , go. (:

hehehehheheheehehe.

Hmm.

2010-12-07T03:36:00.000-08:00

HAIHAI :D

Hello ! Internet is being a bitch yaw . >:(
& when i posted this fucking post , it fucking failed on me . fuck the fucking connection.

Heheh , okay ! Someone ask me to cut down on my vulgarities . Hmm , we'll see about that alright? (sadly thats not happening -.- ) Heh heh . Alright , lemme start . (:

3rd Dec : I totally had no idea what i did on that day ._. Hmm .

4th Dec : Went to grannies , cik jun went home & i went home too .

5th Dec : Hmm , went out with mama , since she asked me to tag along . Went to 2 weddings held by mama's friends children? ><>

6th Dec : Went to grannies , used comp then went home .

7th Dec :

Happy two months love ! ^^v . Me love you very much . hugs&kisses. ^^

Hmm , was awaken by mama -.- She said nenek ask me to tag along with them to sent wedding cards and then go eat at causeway point. Got up , got ready & then headed to Woodlands . Went to this house & yeah , nenek & mama talked to the person :x. I know who is she , but i don't know how she is related to me ._.

Went to Causeway Point after that. Ate at Banquet , then walked around . Then saw this shop that sold beads bangles & the thread one . DANG . I WANTED EVERYTHING THEN . >:( I feel like cabbing to causeway point to buy that then cab back to bedok . Omg , damn nice leh all the bracelets there ! HEHEH . I bought two beads bracelets . Shall take a picture later & then upload it the next time :)
Then , walked around . Then , went to Aunty Ain's house to sent the card also .

Hmm , then went home & here i am . I'm pretty busy this december . Haish , how i hate it . Maybe i should list down everything . (:

8th Dec : Training .

9th Dec : Buying books .

10th Dec : DO HMWK !!!!! Or maybe go out with love.
11th Dec : 1 month . Either Fri or Sat going out with love . (:

12th Dec : Staying at home perhaps? ^^

13th Dec : Out with babygirls. ^^ Maybe photoshoot .

14th Dec : Not sure , most probably staying at home .

15th : Home . ( unless there's training .)

16th : Home . ( unless there's training )

17th : Abang Sari getting married.
18th : Girls side.

19th : Our side . Dang , comfirm tired ttm. ._____.

20th : Home . ( unless there's training .)

21st : Home : ( unless there's training .)
22nd & 23rd : Home. ( unless there's training .)

24th : Out with Ashikkin .

25th : Photoshoot with Paternals .

26th : Home?
27th : Home ?

29th : home?
30th : home?
31st : HOME?!

KAY DONE . IDW DO JANUARY ): MORE STRESS . As you can see , most of it is filled up with ..... HOME !!!! Kaay , i will be bored ttm -.-

Kay nvm . kay byeeeeeeeeeeee !

Love ,

HaziqahSidek.

Love .

2010-12-02T00:23:00.000-08:00

Noor Haikal :D

Alright , shall do a post about my husband okay ? (:

Hai Noor Haikaaal . I really don't know what to say about you in this white box over here with your picture & your name . But , i shall just write what i think . (:

He's just wonderful . He's my everything . I never expected to have him in my life , but yeah , i have him. We started out fine , like some brother and sisters. Then , you know , the spark happened . You like me . I told you i needed time . We spent more time together . Contacting each other every day . Slacking with one another & also with friends . We studied together. We shared our sorrows and happiness together. We got along better and better . Of course , there was times when we both didn't get along . But , it was just for a short moment & we got back fine after that .

We were like couples . People thought we were -.- But we weren't . You sent me home and we did a lot of things together . Until we got together( which was around november ) , i swear that was the happiest moment of my life.

You were there for me when i was sad. You gave me your shoulder when i was tired . You were always with me throughout everything . Thank you love . Thank you for everything . You're everything i need in my life . (:

& i just want you to know that ,

i love you haikaaal . (:

we better last long alright ! forever if possible . (:
& nothing can explain how special you are to me .

With love . Your wife ,

HaziqahSidek .

2010-12-01T22:17:00.000-08:00

TAGS REPLY :

AINNN : HEYHEY . THANK YOU :D

Robiaatul : HEHEHE.

LAILA : RELINKED :D

Sharifah : HEHE , thank you!

TIANNINGG : HAI SISTAAAAAH .

ikkyn : hehee , alright ! :D

Ainn : ALRIGHT :D

Dreams.

2010-12-01T21:45:00.000-08:00

HELLO ! :D

You would have guessed . My dream came true . (:

Right . Here i am . I'm feeling quite lazy to update my blog -.- But , someone asked me too . You should you know who you are . :B

Rmbr my previous post? I said i wanted 500D badly? Hehe , i'll tell you what happen if you keep reading ! :D

26th : Did nothing , stayed at home . (:
27th : Did nothing also , :X

28th : i don't remember. LOL .
29th : Went to grannies since cousins were over for one week. Sis came then went to Simpang to buy satay . Terserempak with Abang Zul , he sounded so abangabang & his friends stared at uss. ZZZ. HAHAH , went back home and ate all the food . was so fulll . hehehe.

30th :

HEHE , woke up at 9 . Then got ready and stuffs. Funny things happened at home . Haha. Left home at 12plus , cos they all still havent reach mah , so i left home late. HEHEH. Was the last one to arrive -.- Um , then , met up with them . 196-ed to ECP . MY SANDALS BROKE =.= . Sat down , Yusuf & TianNing went to cycle while me & love , sat down and talked things out . Then , we went to sit down at the brick thingy and played with the water. Hehe , then , 197-ed back to inter and 24-ed to T3 . Blabla , 24-ed back to inter with love. :)
14-ed home. Thanks love ! heheheh , *youknowiknow* XD

Went to grannies , hehehe .

Then , i went home . * In the bus , sis texted me saying maybe dad brought a dslr * . I wasn't sure , so I went back home around 8 (after heading to grannie) . Reached home , i saw a best denki bag at parents room :B . HEHEH , then , just bathe & then used comp , suddenly dad said , " Haziqah , go register your camera " . I didn't get what he meant , so i just on-ed the comp & went to my usual website. Then Dad brought out the best denki bag and i saw whats inside. I was super shocked . & speechless too . I saw a Canon Box & Camera Bag . WOW . I checked out the box , & it was a fucking DSLR . DANG . HAHAHAH , anyway , it was a Canon 500D . HEHEH , i was so shocked , i kept quiet. HEHHEHE . But , anyway , this is the story :) HEHEHEH.

1st DEC :

Went to grannie's . Slacked there & used comp . Heh , thenthen , cousins decided to go to playground. Decided to bring my camera out for the first time . So took pictures & had such a hard time converting the pictures when i went back home -.- HAHAH , reached home & then did stuffs and went to sleeep ~ .

2nd Dec :

HAIHAI IT IS TODAY YAY . HEHEHEHEHEH . Anyway , at home nowwww . Going to grannies later. Feeling kinda lazy . Zzz .

I MISS MY HUSBAND & BOYFRIEND . ( same person . i don't twotime ) T^T.

I love him kay , :D

hehehe . i love you baby .

HAZIQAHSIDEK .

What's your first & current impression of me ?

2010-11-28T00:14:00.001-08:00

What's your first & current impression of me ?

Answer here

Uh.

2010-11-25T03:31:00.000-08:00

HAIHAI.

Twitter's a bitch , yo.

Geez , if i could , i would already kill twitter mayneee ! Like seriously ! -.- Lol , anyway , i'm updating so as to waste time . Heh.

Holidays are being a real bore to me -.- Grrr . Everything around me is pissing me off too . Life , family , love , friends and everything else . Not going back to school till december . (:

20th ; stayed at home saturday .
21st ; i did nothing , i guess?
22nd ; went back to school to finalise everything for SDMA . Finally its done ! Shall upload the vid , when jeehou allows me too . :) HEHE .
23rd ; stayed at home tuesday .

24th ; went over to farah's since she was alone and asked me for company . bought food & drinks and , gossiped at her house. ^^ . Camwhored and then went back homeee.
25th ; stay home thursday . had been using comp since 3 plus ._.

Haish . Canon DSLR 500D is selling at $999 . T^T . I badly want it pleaseee . I only have $72 in my savings. ( not in bank ) . Ugh , how am i supposed to save $500 ?! I need $428 moree . That will take such a long time for me to save . Ugh , how pathetic can my life be T^T . I really wantttt this DSLR siahhh. Ugh , fml pretty much .

Another thing is , i want to go out this holidays . ): Mummy said nooo . Ugh , fml againnn . I want go out with TianNing , Yusuf & Love on 30th . Then , with azriyani on the 3rd . && somewhere in dec with ashikkin . Ugh , i really want the 3 to be fulfilled . But I'm guessing , it won't happen. Since mummy won't lemme out . & i'm so mad fucking happy 'bout that . -.-
ugh , just fuck my life alright ?!

twitter's still being a mother fucka bitch . nbccb .

Tags Reply :

YUSUF ! : huh ? like whattt? XD

Robiaatul : hehee , thanks for making it aliveeee ~ ^^.

Robiaatul : hmm , alright . ♥

TIANNINGG : Hmm . ><

My boyfriend : Why not ? ); Haish , i know you are ..

HAIKAL : okayyy . :)

TIANNINGG : You know who , :B

Tags replied . Tags more okayyyy ~ (:

HAZIQAHSIDEK . ♥

2010-11-22T06:50:00.000-08:00

You know how it feels like ? When you feel that your bestfriend ignores you , your friends , one by one dissappearing . Your boyfriend trying his very best to cheer you up but you just can't? You lie to him because you promised him not to be upset ?

Yeah , it always happen. It always does.
& i hate the fact that i'm actually lying to him. to him . i didn't want him to be hurt , but i guess i'm hurting him more . he knows me inside out , he knows something troubling me , but he just couldn't figure it out . I ..

i just wanna drop everything and run somewhere far. far from anyone . anyone that knows me . )';

HAIHAI :D

2010-11-19T23:38:00.000-08:00

HAIHAI ! :D

Hehehe. Sorry for not updating . Real busyyy . ~ (:

Hello . I doubt i can keep this blog moving . Its always dusty and i'm always busy ):
Haish, so sad ah my life ): hehehe. Okay , the last time i updated was on the 12th . But my dearest bitch updated it for me on the 16th.

Thanks babygirl for that post. Hehe, we need to meet up real sooon ! :D

Anywayy , 13th had nothing . 14th last day of exam . 15th went back to sch for sdma . 16th ! :D

16th :>

Woke up around 9 plus . Went to farah's crib to hurry her! Bus-ed to inter . Met Eunice . Then , walked to FSPS . A few of them reached. Met Ardd & Gary. HE FUCKING SLIM OKAY . OMG OMG OMG. LOL . Went in school . lalalalaa , ate , saw danish&co . Say hi , crap blablabla , then took pic . blablabla , then went to tamp , slacked then went homeee :D .

17th , was alright . Ate alottttttttt . HEH.

18th , went back to schoool . Then bugis . then home . 19th went back to school from 8 am , to 6. :D. HEHEH . Fun day !

I'm finally in editting and logistic . Its not an easy job to be in both okay ! Its like how hard my seniors are. They look free in a way , but when they are in mp room , they are like fucking stressed okay! I cannot imagine myself ._.

And , i have to go back to school on the 22nd Nov . 6th- 17 Dec. But , im not going on 17th because from 17th to 19th , Abang Sari is getting married . WHICH MEANS IT WILL BE ONE HELL OF 2 WEEKS FOR ME OKAY . I'm gonna be so fucking tired and i'm warning you , don't piss me or show me attitude or gimme problems because i would just go " Fuck off okay. " (: && i won't talk to you until i feel that i want to . HEH.

Alright , i shall list you the date i'm not freee ( Please take note !! ) :
22nd , 24th , 25th . (November)
3rd . 6th - 16th . 17th - 19th . 21st . 23rd . (December) .

Looks little huh . But to me okay only leh . I think next year more worse . >.<

ANYWAY , I NEED TO GO SHOPPPINGGGGGG & BUY SCHOOL BAG . & I ONLY HAVE HUNDRED BUCKS WHERE GOT ENOUGH LEH YOU TELL ME . ISAD. FML . ):

Alright , i shall go off . Takecare , i love you readers.
& i love my husband okay! ♥

HAZIQAHSIDEK. ♥

Haziqah, you're my supergirl, :D

2010-11-16T23:08:00.000-08:00

Hai babygirl, (hearts). Do you know that I was freaking worried sick about you when I got to know about the state you're in right now after reading your posts & tweets?! :( Heh, go on. Continue reading.

Just a random thought. Thanks a mill' for going through thick & thin wimme throughout our 11 years of friendship. I ought to appreciate your kindness but yes, I do know that I've not been doing so recently. And so, for that, I apologise. I've been a super horrible bestfriend & I've not been there for you when you needed me the most & I feel horrible. Just so you know, the amount of care, kindness & effort you've put in to continue this friendship of ours is amazing. You're an amazing girl, trust me. You are :) And a lil' note to Haikal, break her heart & I'll try my best to kill you; physically, mentally, verbally. :) Back to what I said earlier on, (sheesh, I'm distracted. -.-), you're amazing & if there's anyone out there that begs to differ, then he/she must be an asshole. Sheesh. KMA. Like what Katy Perry says, "You're original, cannot be replaced." Like seriously, I'm still amazed. Look at how strong our friendship is despite arguments, misunderstandings & whatnots! Again k, againnnnn. Thankyou, :)

Well, I have plenty of reasons on why you're such an awesome friend. But just to cut it short since I'm really rushing for time, you've been the best anyone could ask for. You'll be one of the first ones to actually contact me every way possible to actually make me forget about my sorrows & laugh that shitty feeling away. :'D Thank you for cheering me up when I was down recently due to yknow what. That's really sweet of you. God bless & I love you, girlfriend! I really hope this impromptu post would cover up those mistakes I've made throughout our 11 years of friendship eventho' it sounds pretty ridiculous & impossible, heh. Aight, I'll see you whenever I'll see you k! &yes, you owe me a thousand & one gossip sessions. SOON, OKAY! :P

xo, FarahSalleh.

2010-11-12T05:59:00.000-08:00

Tags reply

Haikal : Hmm , thanks . & okay . (:

YUSUF ! : (: heh.

2010-11-12T05:31:00.000-08:00

AMALI :)
fishtail braid ! i cn do it :D

Hello ! (:

" You're original , cannot be replaced. "

hello there. i think its quite a time since i've been blogging ._. The only reason i'm blogging is because the bloody twitter won't let me tweet . Motha fuckaaa . Dang , i'm so pissed off -.- . I think im on tweet limit .Ugh -.- Whatever lah , make me pissed off only. ugh .

* im sorry if i dont sound so good in the next few paragraphs . :\ *

So , life has been real okay . I look forward to live each day because of the people in my life . (: Hmm, today is the friday . Tomorrow is Saturday . its stay-at-home . Sunday is my last day of exam for religious class -.- . & monday , i have to go back to school for filming. Tuesday , im going back to fsps for mrs soh farewell .

Its pretty sad that she's leaving . She was a great principal for the whole time i was in Fengshan Primary . I still remembered when it was the last day of P6 and we went to the office to get her signature. She was so sweet to me okay . )'; Alright , enough haziqahsidek . hahahhaa.

You know readers , i wrote so long , i spent 10 minutes on it , but i ended up deleting it . I don't know what got into me . Its happening again . This always happen ): & when this happens , i just wanna cry . I really am on the verge. I don't even know why i'm gonna cry . This is so stupid . I don't know who the hell i am now.

I never knew who i was .
I never did .

It sucks , and im crying . I'll blog again if i feel like it .

HAZIQAHSIDEK.

" I never knew. "

LOL .

2010-11-06T06:26:00.000-07:00

Haikaaaal . & tn above ^^

Yusuf , Haikal . (:

JAMES. OMG . MY WALLPAPER . *dont be jealous ahhhh * hehehehe.

H E L L O . H E L L O . :D

I don't know why im blogging even though i said i was lazy. HEHEH. Anyway , Syazwani ( cyber friend) . Asked me to update. She said she was a fan of my blog and i got really touched and decided to update for the sake of her. Heh .

Anyway , the pics which im wearing blue , are when Tian Ning , Haikal , Yusuf , Farzana & Raudah celebrated my birthday . It was an awesome day . I couldn't explain it . I really loved it . (:

The picture of me and james was when they had to do their project and i tagged along , for fun. Hehehe. How am i glad to be able to enjoy my holidays right now . Um but not unitl the 22nd of Nov -.- . Bridging is over and yeah , SDMA filming and editing will be piling up my schedule up next. then , after that the rest , will be plain boring days rotting at home . LOL . fml if i had to do that everydayyy.

been planning to go out with Azriyani . & also with love to find my bag ^^ . & maybe with tianning , love , & yusuf .& Mad peeps . & maybe 6e-o9 . (: So in a way , i won't be free on any of the 7th of Nov/Dec. I won't be free on 8th , 10th , 11th . *12th ,*15th ,17th , 19th , 25th* of Nov. As for Dec , i cn only confirm that i won't be free on the 3rd , 21st and 31st. LOL . hahahahah , im so packed :B

So yeah , Take note of these dates. The ones with astrics means that i might not be free on tht day . So yeah . (:

Tags reply ! :D

AyuSan : k, asap. (:

Danish : Thank you. (:

Yenny : k.

'Iraaah : k. asap.

ASHLEYKIN : replied.

TIANNINGG : HAHHA , lazy . Fuck yeah . NOSEXCAUSESBADEYES :D

Syazwani : (:

DONE . TAG MORE :D

I guess thats all . I love you readers. xoxo . (:

07, ♥

HAZIQAHSIDEK.

2010-11-06T05:42:00.000-07:00

MY BLOG IS OFFICIALLY DEAD. LAZY TO UPDATE. SHALL UPDATE WHENEVER IM HARDWORKING ENOUGH . ROFLMFAO . MAYBE I SHALL ASK SOMEONE TO UPDATE. LOL , KAY BAI .

BIRTHDAYGIRL.

2010-10-28T06:26:00.000-07:00

HAI EVERYONE :D

my birthday is tmrw. come stay up with me till 12 ;D

Hellohello! must update my blog first before the big day that is coming soon. HEHE.

Monday :

stayed back for erm , editing . then , ate at techview i think. then went home.

Tuesday :

What happened ah? i don't remember leh . HAHAH .

Wednesday :

had cca , met him after that and we went home.

Thursday :

what happened ah? omg , my memory sucks. hahahahahaha . oh ! i was sick . vomited at midnight . went to sch though i was sick . maths , ms lim lecture me. i like. HAHAH. after sch , 8-ed to tamp inter. then 69-ed back to bedok inter. Sibei Zai . Saw some things. :\ . Then , 222-ed back home. thanks love for everything. Er , then then , went to grannies. slept for 2 hours plus , went home and here i am .

I AM STAYING UP TILL 12 TO WITNESS MY TWITTER PAGE AND FACEBOOK PAGE FLOODED. HEHEHE.

JOIN ME IF YOU WANNA ENJOY AND HAVE SOME FUN . :D

haziqahsidek.